…when it feels like the sun is gone.
It’s been hard finding the words to post here lately. I do not try to be an “all happiness and light” blog but I try not to whine and complain ALL the time either. I keep telling myself that it has to get better, it has to get better, it has to get better….unfortunately it hasn’t worked yet. One day….right?
I can’t really get into the details here but the short story is….I am pretty sure that we are not going to buy the house that we thought we were going to buy because of breach of contract. It sucks…I was super excited about that house but I don’t want to buy something that could turn into a complete sh*t show (excuse my French). So…we are living in a day to day rental that we have to be out of by the end of the month and all our stuff is sitting on a rental truck. We are paying a daily rental rate to both the owner of this condo and the moving company. While I know this is a short term issue, without knowing when it will end it is driving me NUTS.
Then my mind jumps to the “so…where are we going to live” question. We are going to look at a few houses tomorrow. The sucky part is that it feels like we HAVE to buy something now because we need to move. I don’t like when I feel forced into a decision. It makes decisions that you might have made anyway feel like they might be wrong just because they are quick.
And the hits just keep on coming with other issues that I can’t/won’t talk about here.
Sigh.
So…I self medicated with a bowl of cookies ‘n cream ice cream and a bit of shopping tonight. Nana & Papa Don came into town for Evan’s preschool graduation today. Evan went home with them a few days early. We will join him there on the weekend with the two older kids. It’s been a low key night during those moments I wasn’t on the phone with real estate agents or lawyers. *twitch*
Honestly I have developed a mean eye twitch & a mouth like a sailor.
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BIG glass of wine (Merlot if red, Riesling if white), Hot bath with Aveda stress relieving bath salts, good book and the door locked so as to insure no interruptions. I’ve also spent countless hours watching shows on my ipad while in the bath. Let me know if you need any recommendations (wine, books or shows)
Good luck with your house hunt. There are LOADS of them for sale in my community, just not sure you would want to live all this way south.
We have our heart set on Ramsay. Evan went to his kindergarten orientation there last night so unless there’s a real reason not to, we will buy there if at all possible.
One word – wine! Hope you find a place soon! I’m assuming with breach of contract, you’re exploring all of your legal options….?
I think I need a glass right now! Legal options….we haven’t decided. We’re in discussions with our lawyer daily. Never thought I would say that….sigh.
Oh, that sucks. Big time. I can just imagine the stress that living situation would cause.
I tend to self-medicate with ice cream too. And blasting through the first two seasons of Downton Abbey in a matter of a few days.
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Yeah…not fun. We are making the best of it though. At least our rental is in a cool neighborhood.
Oh my goodness Merry! I am sending big hugs to you. I don’t tend to drink, I really can’t at all, but wine helps some people. But I prefer listening to upbeat music or having a nice warm bath or curling up with a good book to escape my thoughts. Hope those may help!
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Just about to curl up with my book now!
In my opinion, developing a mouth like a sailor is very helpful. Also, and probably more-so, a glass of wine and some laughs with good friends.
Sorry that you are experiencing this!
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Who am I kidding? I’ve had a mouth like a sailor for a long, long time.
Merry, I know just how you feel; there are some things I just won’t share on my site. But I know how hard it can be to write when the future looks and feels grey. Hang in there; I’ll be thinking of you!
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Thank you Kathryn! That means a lot!
oh merry. what craptacular news. i was just pondering the other day thinking we hadn’t heard from you in a while. i was hoping for more good news that this. i hope it all works out in the end. fingers toes and other appendages crossed for you.
i am terrible about trying to relieve my stress. i tend to get cranky, bitchy and i screama nd cry a lot. though i think a giant glass of wine and a good book would probably help tones.
if you ever feel the need to write something and have the release of sending it off, just write “delete this” in the subject title and send me an email. i’ll delete it without reading it. might help relieve some tension to get the words out.
Something GOOD has to happen to you all really soon!
I’ll be thinking of you this weekend when you find the house of your dreams!!! Enjoy some vino (or lots!) and a nice hot bath too. Monsoon June will end soon enough…
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That totally sucks!!! I hope it’s all resolved soon–stay strong, sista!
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Oh Merry! I am so sorry to hear that this week has not got much better. I can totally relate to the “it has to get better….but it keeps getting worse” feeling. Somehow we always do seem to come out okay on the other side, but it would at least be nice to know when we’re going to reach that other side. I’m praying this all gets resolved soon and you do find the perfect house. Worst case scenario, you can come take over my downtown condo and I’ll go stay with my sister for a few days
Evan can watch the stampede parade from the balcony 
I’m sure you’ve thought about it already, but what about a 6 month lease in somewhere like Inglewood or Ramsey to at least give you some breathing time to look? I’m thinking of you! You can complain to me on twitter (@momstownteach or email if you ever feel like it) as much as you want. Though nothing close to yours, I’m going through my own Calgary house search frustration. We should commiserate over ice cream one day 
We should totally commiserate over ice cream! We are renting in Sunnyside & it’s working out ok so far. We are trying to keep from renting long term b/c all of our stuff is boxed & in storage. We don’t want to have to take part of it out of storage if we’re in a rental longer. Having said that….We may have to do something b/c I didn’t bring that many clothes to our rental!
I agree with the wine! Wine makes everything better.
HUGS.
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I have to keep busy. My mind cannot be allowed no time to wander. Typically though I don’t get stressed out all that much, not to say that I don’t ever, but it’s pretty rare. Mike stresses enough for the both of us. I tend to be the calm voice of reason. It does freak him right out though when I do get stressed. Most times I can talk my way through it. I’ve been through some crummy things in my life (and got through them relatively unscathed), most things are a cake walk in comparison. Also I try to remember it could always be worse.
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